Sunday, October 23, 2011

It's a lonely road to walk

I always thought that I knew what I wanted from my life. Singing has always been my number one passion. I've always used this gift to reach out to others and make them happy. Whether I sing a song someone has requested, sing a song to get my feeling out and hope someone will relate, or just to pleasure people with the simple enjoyment of music.  I used to wish  and want so badly to be randomly discovered so I could be somewhere on a huge stage and reach thousands of people. It was never about the money, but I felt that fame could give me a ladder to do bigger and better things for people and charities. As I've gotten older, those thoughts have seemed to escape me a bit. I still love to sing, but I am 3 years shy of 30 and have to get a grip on reality. I had and have other plans besides just singing. My new years resolution for 2010 was to tap into my other creative interests. I followed through with that goal and I'm still striving to get a few more of these interests out from under the water. My New Years resolution for 2011 was to get back into school and I busted my butt to do it. I owed 3,000 dollars to the university I was attending and I was unable to retrieve any of my transcripts or enroll in school for 3 years. Within 6 months of making my resolution, sacrificing shopping, lunches with friends, or anything that was not "needed," I finally paid off my loan. I'm back in school and I have about 6 months left after this semester is over.
I am so proud of myself because through all the distractions and people saying that I would never go back, I knew in the back of my mind that I had goals. Singing has been an extremely fun portion of my life and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world...not even if it meant I would've graduated at the age of 24 instead of 28. I worked with some of the most talented individuals and I have literally sang my way through college. How many people can say that?
I will say one thing though...trying to reach your goals is a lonely road to walk because you walk it alone. Regardless of friends or family that surround you in the process, you are the only that  can get yourself there and it becomes extremely lonely. I've heard a lot of people say that it's lonely at the top and I can understand how that could be true. But, lonely or not I won't let anything stand in the way of my goals. I just gotta keep on moving. Now...I just need to find some inspiration because I'm feeling so!