Today was one of those days for me. I was tired, moody, and did I mention tired? Haha! I recently started a new workout routine and I've been exhausted. My body isn't used to this kind of strain anymore. I used to dance on stage (singer) for 6 hours off and on in heels without an issue. This also kept me in shape...AND I was also 19-24 which meant everything was younger. It is sooo not that way anymore. Haha! Anyways...I pushed myself to workout today even though I was pooped and I was really proud of myself. If you all want me to elaborate on what I'm doing as far as workouts feel free to comment and I'll try my best to review what I'm doing through this blog. :) Today was also the first weds. I've had off in over 2 years without being sick. I no longer work weds which means my week has an extra day for something else. I spend the evening with my husband and we went shopping at the outlet malls where we live. I found some killer deals at the CCO (Cosmetic Company Outlet) and was so excited. 

When we left the outlets I got to thinking about what I do for a living. I also got to thinking about some of the big beauty gurus on youtube and the amount of hate they receive. (I may be doing a video on that soon.) I just thought to myself how lucky I am to be doing all the wonderful things I do. It's almost like a dream world. That is how thankful I am! I have managed to take so many things that I love and make a living off of them. Most youtube girls always get asked how they make a living when they do a haul. So...How do I make a living? Music, singing, candles, make-up, shopping, chocolate, and teaching. I am one lucky girl!!! When we take things for granted we seem to forget how lucky and blessed we truly are. Sure I could go on and on about how tiring it is to be up at night basically hosting party for everyone, or complain that my guest room has turned into a room that functions as an office, filming studio and of course a bed. But, I am happy with everything! I am happy with what I've done and how I've done it. In the past month...thinking positive has really brought positive results my way.  Removing negative people has brought positive results as well. When I'm working...I am doing just that...Working. I read in my book the other day about a woman who makes a decent amount of money at her job. She explained that she had a friend who also works where she works, but is envious because she doesn't see the same results as she does as far as money.  The woman went on to explain that her friend spends all of her time emailing funny jokes to people while she is at work. We can't expect the same results as someone else when we are putting in half of the work was her point. I fully agree. We can not expect success if we only want to put in half of the effort to get there. 

But, any who..to get back on topic...I am so happy for all the effort I have put into my household and businesses and even though it's taken a lot of time to get the ball rolling on everything it's definitely rolling. I feel like I'm in a good place right now. I love singing for crowds, playing music to keep the party going, reviewing cosmetics, teaching my viewers about different things, being a part of Scentsy (the most positive business I know) and now Velata. I pray that everyone can feel as peaceful as I do right now and I pray that things can keep going up from here.

I tend to get scared when I reach points of success, but I am thinking positive and telling myself that I haven't even gotten to the peak yet. I just need to keep climbing that mountain. I have so much more in store for this year. I just wanted to share because if there are things that you all are dying to do or want...it takes work. All of these things didn't just "fall into place." I made them happen. I put the elbow grease into them and you can do the same for whatever goals you have for yourself. :) I believe you can!

<3

Hayley

Focus

Today I picked up one of my favorite tabloid magazines that I bought over 2 weeks ago and forgot about. While I was reading I realized that I am so behind on my favorite celebrities. Jessica Simpson had her baby...Beyonce's lost her baby weight, Drew Barrymore is pregos, Miley is scary skinny, and Brad and Angelina got engaged. WTF? Normally every week I would go out and buy my 2 favorite magazines and read them the first day I got them. I'm not upset to be so behind. I'm just so shocked at how little I cared and how uninterested I felt while reading all of this. My books have replaced my magazines and my books have given me so much knowledge that I could care less about what else is going on around me. I say this because the books I've been reading have been spiritual, self help, or business oriented books. Since reading these I feel like things have been happening for me. My businesses are improving, my  way of thinking is changing, and I'm feeling so much more positive. Normally when someone would give me the details of some scandal happening where I work (example) or with someone I don't even know, it would be interesting to me. I would listen and again I was usually the last person to know the latest gossip because I try not poke around in people's business. 


As of lately...I feel almost as if any sort of gossip has been a complete turn off for me. I don't care about what other people are doing and I don't care what other people's problems are. For the most part I would listen to people gossip because I am a sympathetic person. I always felt like I had to be there problem solver. Over the past 2 years I have told myself that I can not do that anymore and have been successful at not fighting other people's battles. Therefore I am just a listener and my life has been 75% drama free. It's not that I don't want to listen to people's "personal" problems, I just don't want to listen to them talk about other people's personal issues. Who cares? I see people go on and on every single day on Facebook about what other people post and how much they hate it, make fun of people, etc and all I can think is...why are these people so concerned and feel the need to talk about what other people do? Obviously if we have to sit and talk about other people's lives then we don't have one of our own. I feel like I'm so focused on my goals at the moment that every thing else just seems like a blur. I like it that way. I like giving myself goals and actually reaching them. I like focusing on my businesses, my house hold, my husband, and myself. I've been praying so hard for God to remove people from my life who will distract me from my goals and viola..so many people aren't around as much.  I want to surround myself with successful and genuinely happy people. I would rather have one happy, positive and supportive friend any day than have a ton of fake people surround me.  All in all I have given myself a new goal. A BIG one and I plan on reaching it. I know God has given me blinders for the moment so I can keep my eyes on the prize. 
<3
Hayley

Obsession

My mind is constantly spinning and swirling with goals and achievements I want to accomplish.  It's not a bad thing, but I find that I can't think of anything else other than my goals. It becomes an obsession.  I feel like when I'm super focused on what I want, that is when people catch on and start trying to be competitive with me.  The thing about this is I've been like this my whole life. People constantly think I'm trying to compete when in fact the only thing in my mind is my goal and not anyone or anything else.  All I'm worried about at this point in my life is my household and long term goals.  I'm still trying to run my house to the best of my ability while running 4 businesses.  I have another idea for another small business that I want to progress on over the next year and this is yet another obsession. Haha! People LOVE to pick on me because of my jobs and what I do for a living. They roll there eyes and say..."All you're doing is playing music, recording tutorials, selling scentsy...ect." Look...I don't sit around saying my jobs are difficult, but I will not make any apologies for what I've chosen to do either. It is not my fault that I was smart and took all of my interests and made them into lucrative businesses is it??? DJing is such a fun job. I <3 music and what I do. But, the flip side is that I am constantly out. It's exhausting. Anyone who parties or is up until 2-4 am 4-5 days a week becomes exhausted. Not only that, but I have been trained to have immaculate hair and make-up for performance which takes me 2 hours to do. Imagine having to host the party and keep people spending money and having fun on top of being up late. That is my job. 

My typical day goes something like this: Wake up, check ALL messages (2 facebooks, Youtube, 2 emails, twitter, etc.) respond to all, check Scentsy &Velata workstations, edit a video (1-2 times a week) upload, Respond to scentsy clients, check scentsy/Velata planner, drop husband off at work, set up equipment on some days, come home and EAT, do full on hair and make-up, drive to work, DJ/ karaoke for 4 hours, come home, eat, clean up, play with pets, check more messages, wash makeup off go to bed!

Sunday is my only day where I chill out and allow myself to get away from my obligations. Mondays I clean my entire house top to bottom.  In no way am I complaining. I LOVE everything I do and I am blessed. But, I am so sick of people judging my life as if it's the simplest thing in the world when in fact I have to work very hard at everything I do. I would not make money if I did not promote myself in every single thing that I did.  Promotion is key to getting any business off of the ground. I am never sure if I will lose one if not all of my DJ gigs in a single day, if I will have happy customers and if I will have viewers on my Youtube channel. These are all jobs that I've taken risks on and choose to keep doing because I believe in myself. I only believe all of these things will keep getting BIGGER and BETTER! So...with all this stress, work, and judgement on my shoulders, I know that God has my back and will help me to succeed in whatever I do. I think everyone should take risks with their creativity and interests and try to make a business out of them. After all..the saying goes..."Do what you love and you'll never work a day in your life." 

<3

Hayley

Life Detox

I am so excited for myself! In the past few months I have really gotten back into reading again. I used to love to read when I was younger and for a while recently I was feeling extremely uneasy about a lot of things.  I really wanted to find a way to make myself peaceful since my life is always such a whirlwind. When you work in bars like I do, it can be emotionally and mentally draining because believe it or not you are surrounded by a lot of negative Nancy's for the majority of the time. I thought to myself..."What are the things I used to enjoy doing when I was younger and why aren't I doing some of those things now?" Well...One of them was taking long walks by myself to the park or anywhere else. But, in our world now a days that's almost impossible when you're a woman. It's become a dangerous thing. :/ I kept racking my brain and I used to LOVE to read. I probably stopped because it wasn't the "cool" thing to do. But, I love to read things and learn. I'm more of a self help, inspirational, how to, type of reader. Anything that I can gain knowledge from is something I like to read.  

One day I was sitting back getting ready for an event and was flipping through the channels when someone caught my ear. I flipped back and realized that I was on the inspirational channel which I never watch. A Pastor named Mike Murdock was talking. I was instantly enthralled in everything he had to say.  He mentioned one of his books at the end of the segment and when I got home that evening I ordered 4 of them! He has so many books to choose from. His way of preaching is so relatable. He really makes you look at things from a different perspective. I just finished reading my 4th book today and since reading his books I feel like my life and way of thinking has changed drastically.  He is a Pastor that talks about prosperity, having a better life, blessings, ways to bless others, planting seeds, etc. I swear since reading his books I've had more success with my finances, a more peaceful mind, and a completely different outlook when it comes to work and people. He has really inspired me to want to be better. If I've had a bad day I'll come home and read a little bit of my book and I instantly feel a calm come over me. It's amazing! I want to order more of his books now that I'm done with all of these. I want to learn more! He has so many quotes through out his books that you can live by and use as life mottos. One of them that has really stuck with me is.."What you do for others, God will do for you." If you help others to succeed...God will help you to succeed. If you make others happy...God will make you happy. It's all about having faith. :) 

Last but not least..reading these books have made me feel so much more confident. I feel like speaking my mind is the only option lately. It's not a bad thing and I've always been like that, but it's in a different way now. It's almost as if I can turn a negative conversation around just by speaking my mind and asking the questions that most people wouldn't ask. I don't know if that makes any sense...but it is sooo crazy! It's almost like a life detox. Anyways...I highly recommend his books if you are going through a troubled time or simply just want to live a more God like life. I can almost guarantee that this will give you a nice soul and brain detox. Who needs a spa when you can have a life detox in a book :)

<3

Hayley

It's a lonely road to walk

I always thought that I knew what I wanted from my life. Singing has always been my number one passion. I've always used this gift to reach out to others and make them happy. Whether I sing a song someone has requested, sing a song to get my feeling out and hope someone will relate, or just to pleasure people with the simple enjoyment of music.  I used to wish  and want so badly to be randomly discovered so I could be somewhere on a huge stage and reach thousands of people. It was never about the money, but I felt that fame could give me a ladder to do bigger and better things for people and charities. As I've gotten older, those thoughts have seemed to escape me a bit. I still love to sing, but I am 3 years shy of 30 and have to get a grip on reality. I had and have other plans besides just singing. My new years resolution for 2010 was to tap into my other creative interests. I followed through with that goal and I'm still striving to get a few more of these interests out from under the water. My New Years resolution for 2011 was to get back into school and I busted my butt to do it. I owed 3,000 dollars to the university I was attending and I was unable to retrieve any of my transcripts or enroll in school for 3 years. Within 6 months of making my resolution, sacrificing shopping, lunches with friends, or anything that was not "needed," I finally paid off my loan. I'm back in school and I have about 6 months left after this semester is over.
I am so proud of myself because through all the distractions and people saying that I would never go back, I knew in the back of my mind that I had goals. Singing has been an extremely fun portion of my life and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world...not even if it meant I would've graduated at the age of 24 instead of 28. I worked with some of the most talented individuals and I have literally sang my way through college. How many people can say that?
I will say one thing though...trying to reach your goals is a lonely road to walk because you walk it alone. Regardless of friends or family that surround you in the process, you are the only that  can get yourself there and it becomes extremely lonely. I've heard a lot of people say that it's lonely at the top and I can understand how that could be true. But, lonely or not I won't let anything stand in the way of my goals. I just gotta keep on moving. Now...I just need to find some inspiration because I'm feeling so drained...lol!

Busy little Bee!

It's been a little while since I've written because I have been completely busy with a million different things and projects. I guess I should fill you in on some things huh? Let's see....for those of you who are new to my blog I have a karaoke/DJ company that I own with another friend of mine. We work 4 nights a week and with the holidays coming around I've been getting booked for private parties which is always wonderful. Extra money comes in handy around this time of year. I recently became an Independent Scentsy Consultant which I am obsesses with. If you don't know what Scentsy is, you can stop by my website. https://hayley7363.scentsy.us/Home They're wickless candles that I've used for a few years now and I LOVE them! This new venture has not only been extremely positive, but it's also fun! I am also a Mary Kay consultant as well because as we all know I love makeup and really wanted to experiment with their line. Yes...I'm crazy and I have a ton a jobs. I guess you could say I'm a work-a-holic and as you can tell I DON'T like to be told what to do or how to do it, which is why I own all of my businesses. Haha! We can't forget about good old Youtube. I did start that other channel as you all suggested I do. It's been up for about a month and so far so good. I have a really good feeling about it. www.youtube.com/user/Hayleyspeaks  I was really excited because I was featured in the latest episode of The Haul this week. The Haul is a style network on Youtube that I signed on with a couple of months ago. I received and email saying they were interested in signing me on and after going through all the contracts I decided to do it. Pretty soon Youtube will have several Networks just like television does...so get ready for that! My world is changing right before my eyes. The harder I work the better things get. Hard work really does pay off. We can't expect to have the things we want by sitting around. You know? We also can't do things for the wrong reasons either. You should love what you do and if you don't, then you need to change something about your life, career etc. Some people feel stuck in their current positions, but I will tell  you that there is always a way out. It's all up to our will power to move forward and be a better person than we were  yesterday.
Anyways...back to Youtube. I haven't told ANYONE but maybe 1 friend and my family that always asks how I am or what I'm up to about this. (Yes...no one else knows, not even the people I see everyday because they don't ask what's going on with me...haha)  I got an email from someone asking me to be a part of a huge project. I thought it was fake at first, but then I got the phone call and realized the opportunity was real! I will have a chance to share a portion of my life with the world! Hopefully my footage will be used in this project, but it's international and it's with a MAJOR television network. I don't want to talk to much about it, but I will reveal all the details once I have everything submitted. Because after that, it will be a waiting game to see if my material will be used. It is just an honor to be asked to be a part of something this huge, but at the same time it's extremely scary because it's dealing with a sensitive subject. It has nothing to do with beauty, but one of my videos definitely made an impact which is why I was contacted. That makes me extremely happy because this is why I do everything I do. I want to make a difference and make people happy. This makes all of my hard work worth while! I promise to give you more details in a few weeks. :)
<3
Hayley

My Imperfect Life

Never in a million years did I think a Youtube tag could effect so many people. If you don't know what a TAG is, it's basically a video where you answer a questioniare that's extremely random. They're usually made up with fun questions to let your subscribers get to know you a little bit better. I got tagged by the beautiful SamanthaSchuerman from youtube to do the My Imperfect Life Tag. Basically you tell two life struggles you've had and then you talk about 2 positive outcomes for each struggle whether it be a postive life outcome or a personality trait. I was extremely hesitant to do it because I had no idea what to talk about. I thought about for a bit and then just turned the camera on and began talking away. 22 minutes of talking to be exact. I barely edited anything out. I have seen people cry while doing this tag which is amazing. It's like youtube therapy! Haha! It really makes you think about yourself in a more positive light and reflect on your hardships.

All joking aside...this has to be one of the best videos I've made for my channel. I've recieved so many letters from subscribers or people who have found my channel. They've been telling me about their life struggles which may be similiar to mine or very different. I had the idea to make another channel where I would basically answer questions or give advice. I have already recorded videos for it, but I'm debating whether to do it or not. Not to toot my own horn, but I really feel like I have something to offer. I'm an extremely strong individual and I feel like I've been through so much in my life. I feel like this video and the response really validated my instinct to start another channel. I feel like if I can help people with my experiences and mistakes and share them, it might either prevent people from going down the same path or give them comfort to know that they're not alone. I'm just overwhelmed with the positivity and inspiration I have gained from my beauty channel that I want to do more. I started youtube as a hobby and I LOVE makeup and beauty, but this video made it all worth while. I reached people and in everything I do whether it be singing, youtube, teaching...etc. That is always my goal. I want to reach people and make them happy. What do you all think. Yay or nay on a second channel?
<3
Hayley